So guess what guys?
I get to go to Florida for the band trip!!!!!!!
I'm super pumped!!

I GOT MY LICENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for the birthday wishes guys!!!!!! =D

Dear People Reading this blog,
Hi
I would write on here so much more if i had anything to say, but i don't
because nothing ever happens here

Sincerely,
Nicole

Dear Readers,
Hi!
I haven't written on here for a long time, and it's mostly because I don't have anything to say because nothing happens
two weeks ago was homecoming
and it was really fun
I didn't have to wear a uniform for a whole week!!
Monday-Pajama day
Tuesday-Hawaii day
Wed. retro day
Thurs. color day -color of powder puff
Fri-dress up for mass

Monday was fun and comfy
i had band so i didn't get to do the activity of throwing fruit off the bleachers
Tuesday i wore a sweatshirt! and i had band so i missed the basketball game
Wed- I wore my mom's letter jacket! and i got to watch the entertaining game of human Foosball
Thurs. was purple/black and it was a half day, so then we watched the powder puff game
Friday-i had an ortho, so I missed mass, and i just wore Saints clothes, we had an open lunch so that was fun
Saturday-i got my hair done, went to my friend Anna's then went to the dance
it was really fun, the played mostly rap =( but they played a waltz (?) and that was entertaining!
so that week was really fun and we had like no homework

Now this week homecoming was over and the homework got piled on again =( and i had to come back to reality
then i realized that the quarter ends really soon, and my grades aren't super good, but i think i can get them up, but no 4.0 anymore....
Then stupid teachers who hate me for no reason, and it makes me sad
anyway. now its a new week, I'm guessing it will be similar to last week, but i have no school on Friday!! hence the IOWA TRIP. I am leaving in the morning so I'll be there early after noonish so i can spend all afternoon w/ yal, then hopefully someone can take me in that night, and i have all morning on Saturday to do stuff!
and during all that stuff in the last two weeks i was practicing my flute for hours at a time getting ready for IMEA (like Allstate) and i did OK on the music and sucked the scales so i didn't make it =( but i still have two years to try again! so i was very busy

Love, Nicole

ps I miss you a lot!!!!!!

Guess what?!?!
I am second chair in band!!!!!
yay!!!

Next time you miss someone,
Look at the moon
because it's the same moon no matter where you are

What's new?

Hey guys! What's up?

when someone asks you that, normally you think, oh just a way to break the ice, and everyone answers nothing. including myself.

but lately it's hasn't been enough for me. I'm not with you guys anymore, so I really don't know what's going on. and i feel left out

so next time I ask you what's new or how's life?
remember that I'm not there and i don't actually know
so tell me everything
how you feel, who's dating who, who's on what, who do you hate/like, what ur doing in ur classes, what ur teachers are like, etc
I want to know
because I don't have any idea

Not much has happened lately,
I have a bunch of homework all the time
I've been hanging out with my new friend Anna and her friends
they remind me of u guys quite a bit!

just know that i miss you all a lot!

and that my life is boring here so all i do is think of u!

ps im reading twilight!!

so... School has started
and it's not really that fun
i feel really lonely
and busy all the time
i hang out with a few people
but its just not the same
the classes are strange
and im pretty sure they're way ahead in spanish
i have to take religion class that i know nothing about
and i take biology with freshman cuz i didn't take in waverly like i should have
i take algebra II with juniors cuz no one does that here...
and i have homework in almost every class every night
well thats life for me now-Missing everyone, even the people i don't even like
i would give so much to be back with u guys again......

ok well
I'm all moved in now so yay i guess
no more unpacking
but sigh
moving sucks
this town is huge and i never know where i'm at
but i figured out where my school is
and i think i can ride my moped there
so thats good
the band teacher sounds nice
but everything is so boring here
and i don't know anyone
so i just sit here
but now i have internet (finally) so yay i can go on facebook!!
ok im done ranting about nothing now
so bye

Hey guys!
guess what?!
I am finally getting a cellular device

idk the # yet, but when i do, i shall tell u!!

I am detasseling which started today
so i prly won't write much for a while
even though i don't write much anyway
so yea
detasseling really isn't that much fun just to let you know

luvluv
Nikki D

Thanks

< Nicole 3

Well Hello
I am free tomorrow all day
so I was hoping all/most of you could chill out with me

I am not really sure what to do, but we really need to do something
And i need to tell you something

I was thinking about maybe Kids Kingdom at 1030?
maybe bring some $ if we get hungry
idk
but we really need to hang out
so call me!!!

~Nikki D~

Well I am back from vacation in case you didn't know
and it was pretty fun
i saw lots of monuments
including the FDR one
i was super pumped
there was a lot of walking
we went to the beach once
it was cold
but wavy
so it was fun
it was hot almost all the time
except during the fireworks
when it rained
but the fire works were pretty darn awesome
and yea

ps
I have something very important to tell all of you, but I can't yet, so please don't ask

TRANSPORTATION

So as most of you know, I got a moped! yay!
and i had to go through a big long process of getting forms and papers and take the moped course and such
so i took the course a few weeks ago
and i got the papers in the mail a few days ago
so we went to the court house and got the license plate
and my moped license
so I AM LEGAL
yay, so if you ever want to chill out or something
i have a way to get there!!!
yay

yet again....

So here we go again,
We are fighting again, or maybe even still...
It has happened before
but before, we had reasons
This time, we are fighting about absolutely nothing
yes, everyone wishes they could go back and fix things
But they can't
So we all need to move on
Forget those things
they were all stupid, we were young

History repeats it self
and looking back on our history as a group
do we really want it to?

Let's go over what has happened it the last few years

Well, in 5th grade I moved here, the posse included Sam B, Sam N, Elizabeth, Emily, and Aditi
we were all super tight
we even sat in the same seats everyday at lunch
6th grade was very similar
7th grade came along, and we were still really tight, we even accepted a new member of the posse, Jordan Thomas
We weren't all on the same team in JH, so we didn't always see everyone
Eventually, Aditi was starting to to get on everyone's nerves
We tried to live with it, but one day I finally got fed up and wrote her a nasty note
I gave it go her the next period, and she never talked to us for almost two years
Without Aditi to fight about all the time, we were really happy, hyper, fun posse
8th grade came, and were were happy, we still weren't all on the same team, but we lived with it, once again
We ended up with another member of our posse, Brianne Power
Emily made a new friend Katie, and they bonded over basketball and Vette's calves
We were good with it, until it seemed like she was favoring Katie over us
The group was not happy with being ditched by someone who she had known for a few months, when we had been best friends for many years
Things started to get out of hand
The posse had a meeting and we tried to talk things out
But that ended badly with things blown out of proportion
Sam N wrote the nasty note this time
and Emily left us
She eventually became friends with Sam again, but her and Jordan had it in for each other
and fought non-stop
We are now towards the end of 8th grade
so summer came and they still fought
but Jordan moved that summer
and they didn't speak anymore
Then finally, 9th grade
we were all super tight and finally thought we had found the final posse
the group we would have forever, we rarely fought and we were all so much fun
But boys started to take over our lives
and things started to change
We started to fight all the time
and fixing these problems was much harder than the problems in Junior High
One person always thought that they were right
and everyone else was wrong
and a bunch of opinionated people going against each other never really worked for us
We eventually got over it
mostly by righting nasty blogs, and not talking about it
but we finally realized that that was not the best way to go about things
we actually got to a good spot
and stopped fighting for a while
until now
when we start fighting about nothing
who knows why, but it has happened again
and I think we really need to talk about it this time for real
and not just say that we need to talk about it, actually do what we say we should

let's not let history repeat it self
some of these blogs are just like the nasty notes that have been written in the past
and is that really how we want to end things?
we have three years left of high school guys....
Let's get it together

Lately a lot of stuff has been happening in Iowa
the tornado in Parkersburg was terrible and it caused sooo much damage
its soo sad to see all of the houses that aren't there anymore
houses that people lived in
and now they're gone
they have nothing
and now
since it hasn't stopped raining for the last month straight
it is flooding everywhere
the whole town is all closed up
people have to evacuate
its really depressing
so many families are missing everything
I am so grateful that i have a great house
and great friends
and i don't like too close to a river
i actually have things
and a bed to sleep in and food to eat

I can't even imagine losing my house
what would i do?


well anyway,
school's out
summer has begun
this summer is gonna rock my socks
i just know it
but so far
its been really boring
and i haven't seen anyone
and i have been watcing my puppy
i have a moped but i can't get my license until the courthouse opens
and the pool is closed
and when it wasn't, it was rainging
so i hope this ends soon
and this summer can get STARTED!!!!

Sophomore Schedule

Semester 1
1 Band-Vowels
2 Spanish 2-Schlumbohm
3 Biology-?
4 Concert Choir-Lehmann
5 English 10 Honors-Atkinson
6 AP American History-Snyder
7 P.E. -Dawson
8 Algebra 2-Ramthun

Semester 2
1 Algebra 2-Ramthun
2 P.E. -Dawson
3 English 10 Honors-Atkinson
4 Symphonic Band-Vowels
5 Concert Choir-Lehmann
6 AP American History-Snyder
7 Biology-?
8 Spanish 2-Schlumbohm

=(

Well as most of you know by now

I was very depressed on Thursday

When we got home from school on Wednesday, my mom had my brother and I sit on the couch because she had something to tell us

all of the sudden she starts to cry

and tells us that Maggie has been hit by a car and she didn't make it

We sat there in shock for a minute

and then my brother and I start to cry

and I cried for quite a while

but then we went shopping to get our mind off of it

but on our way home

my dad called and he wanted to know what was going on

and I started to cry again

then later i had muni band

and that wasn't a very good distraction

Then came Thursday

I had been regretting telling everyone

Mr. Vowels noticed that i was depressed during band

and so he got it out of me, and i started to cry

then next period i didn't want to tell anyone

so i just wrote a note

i just couldn't take it

so i would really like to thank everyone for the great support

because i felt so terrible

and sorry Elizabeth for not actually telling you, but it was soooo hard

Our house is so empty

She doesn't come to the door when i walk in

our sit by our feet at dinner

the house is lonely

and it didn't help that we just got rid of our furniture so it was literally empty too

it was the worst day in a veryyyy loooong time

I felt much better today

and after school we went back to the place where we got Maggie and looked for a new puppy

and we have one picked out

and we will get her next Friday

she looks just like Maggie

even the same markings

we haven't picked out a name yet

but we shall eventually

the one on the right^

so thanks so much again for being so amazing

Life in general

Well, school is winding to a halt
and activities have stopped
and i have absolutly nothing to do
im not involved in anything anymore
and i am bored to death
in a few weeks i am getting a moped
yay
so i will be able to cruise around town
yippee
Today is Memorial Day
we marched in two parades
and it was super hot
i had sweat dripping down my back
it was disgusting
but i lived
so its all good

on a different note
we really need to have a party
we have all had a lot of changes this year
but especially a lot recently
and we are all talking behind each others back again
(don't even deny it)
so we all need to get together and let everything out
how we feel about each person
why we love them and what bothers us
and get everything off our chests
but not feel bad because it's the truth and we need to hear it
we have all been talking about how we need to tell each other the truth and how we should get together
but it never actually happens
so we seriously need to have a party
soon

love Nicole

Oh WOW

well i personally thought that dance was pretty ok
i didn't sit in a corner and cry so thats always a good thing
but it wasn't very exciting
but ooh the drama, i suppose
everyone is just being bitchy (again)
this has been happening a lot lately
and it's getting really annoying
we really need to just tell people how we feel
i know im not really one to talk
because i don't really tell people how i feel either
but maybe i/we should start
next time some one annoys the crap out of you, tell them
and maybe they'll understand

and if you're the one being told you're annoying
don't be a bitch and get whining
understand where they're coming from and try to be a better, less annoying person

i know im a terrible writer and that this doesn't really make sense
but hopefully you get what i am trying to say

Life

So Jordan remined me to look at my livejournal
so i did
I basically wrote about how much my life sucked
about how everyone has bf's except me, which is still true
and how i never had dates to any of the dances
and about every other post i wrote about being over him or still liking him
it was actually really depressing how boys ruled my life
but then i kind of realized: boys have been the focus of all of my friends lives almost all year.
that's almost all we talk about
and lately it seems it has been getting worse
yea guys are nice, but boyfriends come and go, and friends are always there for you
And i know that if everyone keeps putting other people before me constantly, i'm not gonna want to even bother anymore

come on ladies: Chicks before Dicks
hang out with your true friends, you don't always have to talk about/make-out with him all the time
chill with the girls!

well after reading my livejournal, i realized nothing really happened to me at all, almost all of my posts started out with "Well life is boring as usual" or something like that. Nothing happened to me, and if something did happen, it was bad
That's why the past few weeks have been so amazing for me
I have actually been truly happy for the first time all school year. At the end of the summer i was so excited for high school, a change, a chance for a new beginning, but none of that happened...
The past few weeks have been so great!
We are alternates for Nationals, which is huge
then we won an extra award for economic development for History Day
in addition to all of that Mrs Thorson won the teacher of the year award. which she really deserved
we don't always like her (like almost never) but she does work really hard and it's her last year
I got a solo in band
and we got a rating I and stover cried which is an accomplishment in itself
i get to be one of five sophomores in symphonic band next year
which is so exciting for me because this was a huge goal of mine all year
but it does hurt when people try to tear me down and make me feel bad about something that i worked so hard at
And i have also been spending a bunch of time with the peeps i love the most
I am actually happy
and it feels good

so next time you are feeling like your life is so terrible, don't think about the bad things, remember all the good things that have happened to you
or just look at your Happy List

Lots of Love
Nicole

I haven't written on here for a while
which is kinda the way most of my blogs lately have started
but im just not deep/creative enough to have anything interesting to say

i would just like to say that the party and show last night was very fun

Happy

well here i am writing another blog
i try to think of something deep and meaningful to say
but i can't
cuz i guess i am just not a deep person
so i am gonna do my own challenge and write about stuff that makes me happy

Friends
Family
Boys
Hugs
Hugs
Hugs
Just sitting outside
Listening to rain
Sunshine
Thinking
Singing
Dancing
Reading
Puppies
Drawing abstract
Coloring
Listening to nature
Dessert
Knowing that I did something well
Accomplishment
Movie nights
Parties
Guitar Hero
Listening to music
Band
Facebook
IMing
Clouds
Blogs
Talking about nothing
History Day
Phone calls
Sports for fun
Belonging

Guess What?!

uh nothing
so i just felt like writing a blog
cuz i have 't for a while
and i think everyone else should write one too
but not a stupid mean one
one that is happy
and cheeful
that way, no one can twist it around and make it bad
or sound bad
even if it isn't

so just be happy for no reason at all
just think of everything that has ever made you happy
and just write

why bother?

I don't know if I should even write on here anymore
because no matter what i write
its just going to be turned and twisted
or hurt someones feelings
or anger someone
or create conflict
so what's the point of these blogs anymore
we write angry stuff all the time
then at school we're perfectly fine
the fights are online
we are just chicken
we can't even be face to face and talk

faces are decieving
we are all liars
and don't try to deny it

business

so wow
last week was soo busy
and i got like no sleep
i was memorizing my lines all up to wednesday
then that night i got to sleep at like 2 cuz i was freaked out about hd
then i got up early to go to flute choir
then was planning on leaving after 4th period
but NOOOO
thorson decides not to tell us that we are leaving after 3rd
wtf?
so after a major freak out
sam and i call sherri
and eventually leave
then we peform
and suck
but amazingly
we made it anyway!!!
then i had to go back home for like 2 hours
then go to science showcase
woohoo
that was a blast
not
it was sooo boring
and my topic was dumb and confusing so no one cared
i mean i didn't even care
then comes FRIDAY
nothing
relax
until bedtime where i freak out about saturday
then i wake up to get on the 8 bus to cresco
get really nervous
then play and kick ass
i got a I
barely, but i did
i was really excited
then i sat around for like three more hours until flute choir
which also got a I
then i went home with sam
then housework all day sunday
wow
now its monday
i had an ortho and thats it
and now i have nothing to do
after this thursday, my last flute choir rehersal, i am no longer involved in anything
i will usher the play friday and saturday, then nothing
forever!
wow im gonna be bored
well thats it for my life
bye

Life lately

So yea
life has been a little bit crazy lately
let's start with thursday
go to school
early out
go home
friday: No school
jordan come over and go over scripts
go to sams with jordan
work on HD for hours
painting and memorizing, the whole shabang
then jordan and me leave
eat
then go to show at 6ish
jam at show with like no one there until 11ish
go to sleep after having deep convos with jordan
get up and eat
the off to set contstruction to paint
then walk to sams for more Hd
and guess what
MORE PAINTING
and more memorizing
then jordan leaves
and i go home
work on my science,english, and math paper
which has to be 4 pages
and i got it done
yay tessellations
then i finished my science showcase poster
and such like that
then Easter!! yay
get up
go to church
go to gma's and eat
then leave
and try to practice my flute solo which sucks
then guitar hero
then BLOG
the end

the dance

so the dance last night was pretty ok
i was kinda bored cuz i didn't have a date or anything
Liz was sad cuz nate wasn't there
jordan had fun with samd (not like that)
Samb had fun with david- i think
Brianne? brianne who?
Samn i think had fun she was hanging with two crowds
poor poor heidi and samE
its ok heidi we still love you
don't be sad
faithe had anders for a little while
cuz he was late and then he was gonna dance with someone else
loser
oh well
thats about it
then i went to samn's this morning and we worked on hd some more
wow im like overloading on history day right now
ahhhh
luvluv
Nicole

Speech

So state speech contest was yesterday
yay
it was a lot of fun
especially the bus ride there
calling and texting jordan
then writing a quiz
wow good times
i got straight II's
but its ok im just a loser frosh
it was a blast while it lasted
then today im planning on going to jordan's musical
then doing who knows what
so there's a dance on friday
and i don't have a date
still
but w/e
it shall be fun anyway
like the rest of the dances this year
so yay

omg people piss me off

you probably know who you are


on a good note
YAY SPEECH
so speech is on saturday
and i am pretty pumped
its gonna be amazing
and hopefully better than last time
i hope i do well
but im a frosh
and most likely won't make it to allstate anyway
oh well
speech=love

Party! Woot?!

Well let's see
the party was pretty amazing
and i had a lot of fun
until some stuff started to happen
and most of you picked up on it
and those who didn't were the one(s) who was provoking it in the first place
gee thanks
Mostly everyone understood what i was feeling
except those who didn't even notice
or maybe didn't bother to notice
but then most of them left and i felt much better
then D+S=<3>
even though we should have had a group meeting and told everyone at the same time
then we all watched a movie and didn't notice each other
Then it happened
i knew about it cuz i could feel it
Then we all left to go home eventually
I hung out with some of my peeps at the aud. cuz my bro had a tourn. so inbetween games i helped them
and i had a bunch of fun

I am not even gonna go into details because you would have noticed what I am talking about if you really cared
and If you really cared i wouldn't even have to tell you

Speech

Yay speech was really really fun
except that jordan wasn't there
but we had a lot of fun
I got a I on my Poetry piece
and surprisingly
I am going to state!!!!!!
im really excited
the end

Ok guys

So i haven't written for a really long time because i have been very busy

But I am pretty sure i figured why i have been all depressed and such

I just got a facebook as most of you know
and my friends from New hampton also have facebooks so i have been looking at theirs and stuff
and i saw them at a basketball game
and i realized that they are preps
I realized that if i wouldn't have moved i would be a prep
I would have been popular
I would have been out for sports and been good at them
I would wear name brands
and lots of makeup
I would not be single
i would always look like i spent all day trying to get ready
I used to think that i would never want to be like that im glad i moved, but then it set in
I kinda DO want to be like that
I want to look pretty
I don't want to be a loser that, people who aren't my friends, look down on
Just look at me like a good student who gets good grades
I want people to look up at me as someone they want to be like

But eventually, I realized that I am glad that I moved because i got to meet these amazing people i call Best Friends
And i am so happy when I am hanging out with you guys
You can all make me laugh so much

Hmmm

Backstab: To attack (someone) unfairly, especially in an underhand, deceitful manner

Fake: anything made to appear otherwise than it actually is

Blindside: to attack critically where a person is vulnerable, uninformed

Terrify: to fill with terror or alarm; make greatly afraid


Confused: to perplex or bewilder

Compare: to examine (two or more objects, people, etc.) to see similarities and differences

Immature: emotionally undeveloped; juvenile; childish.

Bitter: characterized by intense antagonism or hostility

Judgmental: involving the use or exercise of judgment

Distraction: that which distracts, divides the attention, or prevents concentration

Controls: to exercise restraint or direction over; dominate; command

Are these words familiar?

Truth

What is Truth?
Is it the actual telling of the trueness?
Or is it the lack of a lie?
I say that talking around the truth is as much a lie as a lie itself

If no one could lie
What would the world be?
Would they be happy?
Or angry?
What would we say?
Would we tell the whole truth, or would we go around it
like "Is this dress ugly?"
"It really matches your shoes"
The dress is really ugly, but that person will never know because no one her
they just avoided the question, and told a different truth

What would we do if we couldn't lie?
Would we be able to say half the things we say?
Would "I love you" still be able to be spoken from our lips?
Do we truthfully love the people we say that to?
Love is a strong word
It should be used with caution
and it shouldn't be used when it isn't meant
I believe that most of the time when you say "I love you"
you don't really mean it

I truly LOVE you,
Nicole

Yeah

So i haven't really written anything for a while cuz nothing has happened
if you hadn't noticed nothing interesting ever happens to me
so thats about it
Valentines day for boring
but going to Elizabeth's house was really fun
hanging out with Nate and Faithe and Alex and Tarryn (sp?) Matt and Brita and Elizabeth and Anders and Jerod
we had lots of fun
watching youtube videos wathin matt try to make a cake that actually tasted good
and playing guitar hero and just talking about nothing
it was fun
luvluv
Nicole

Winterfest

So winterfest was on friday
i actually had a lot of fun
i danced a lot more than i normally do at dances
some people were dancing with me and some people were dancing with other people
but then there were the people who didn't do anything at all
those were the people who made me mad
i don't wanna be mad at them, but they said one thing
and then did something else
its the liars that make me mad
i didn't even get to dance with my date very much
and she didn't get to dance with.......
its ok faithe we don't need guys to make us happy
well... not always
i mean it would help
but we are naturally happy people
and and and OMGOMGOMGOMG
i got a facebook again....
but i m soooo happy
yeah end of story

If you love somebody, let them go.
If they return, they were always yours.
If they don't, they never were

^this quote depresses me
it makes me think of my life
and how many people have come and gone
we were tight at some point,
but they are gone now
and who knows if they will ever come back

well today has been really boring
Snow Day!
of course
i didn't really do anything
no one was really online
so i had no one to talk to
and i don't have a phone
so no one to talk to or text or anything
i don't have a facebook so i couldn't leave anyone a message
wow isn't my life wonderful
our band concert was cancelled last night
now its rescheduled for tomorrow
then there is supposed to be a pep band on friday
like anyone is going to play in back right before a huge dance
not i
i take to long to get ready
im sure it will take me an hour
blah/excited
who knows what will happen
prolly nothing
like usual

State Speech

well Saturday was state speech
i woke up at 5am
it sucked
then got on the bus at 6
tiredness the whole way
and like usual i was sitting by myself on the bus
i listened to my ipod the whole way there and i couldn't read cuz it was too dark
then we got there and set up our stuff
then we hung out and watched other people perform
until 4ish when we finally performed
we did amazing
we didn't mess up and the audience laughed
we got our results shortly after
II II and I
no all state for us
oh well
we're just silly freshman who can't do anything right

but there was some pretty fun times as well
i attempted to play hackysack with jordan and her friends
and i had some really deep conversations with some people
and i believe they were pretty successful

then we got on the bus to go back home
samn went home with jordan and her mom
and i got to sit with samb
it was dark yet again so i couldn't read
but i had some more intense convos
but i was a little distracted by some interesting stuff going on....
(poor penguins)

an hour and a half later we were finally home
i ate some food and went straight to bed
i went shopping the next day
then it was off to history day at sams
we actually made some good progress
some of out script is made and it was pretty fun reading this old dudes memory book thing
then i went home and watched the super bowl
yay....
it was a really boring game until the clock had two minutes left
then the underdog Giants made the final touchdown and defeated the undefeated Patriots
it was pretty cool i guess
then i went to bed again
and got up and wrote this
NO SCHOOL!!!!!
then school tomorrow
wearing my amazing new state shirt instead of the white i am supposed to be wearing for winterfest week
oh well.....
Winterfest is on friday
yay i can't wait
I am still going with Faithe
unless this thing that she isn't telling me has something to do with the dance......
oh well its not like im not used to being dateless at dances

thats the last few days of my life
Nikki D

So life hasn't really changed much since Tuesday
tomorrow is finally friday!!!
super excited
then saturday is STATE SPEECH CONTEST
WOOT
we are gonna rock
hopefully we make it to allstate
not likely but possible
the bus leaves at 6am
ahhhhh
sleeping on the bus for me
wow its early
but is shall be worth it
a week from tomorrow is winterfest
yay
still going with my bestie sophy Faithe
we are gonna make everyone jealous
tcha we rock more than all the other couples
bored crazy and blah
Luv Nikki D

Nothing new

Well today is really windy and snowy
so we got out at 1100
YAY
We were supposed to have a meeting for HD with an economist
but that didn't happen
oh darn.....
The past two days i have been tearing my room apart
cleaning and rearranging it and throwing bunches of stuff away
So now its like empty
Im really bored
and kinda lonely
No one is ever online anymore
and of course i don't have a facebook, myspace, or a cell phone
lucky me!
and even if i did have a phone its not like i have anyone to call (boy)
It is only a week away from Winterfest
and of course i still don't have a date
and im positive i won't
so i am going with Faithe
unless she gets a date
which she prolly will
cuz everyone seems to get dates to dances excpect me
im used to it by now, but it still isn't fun
Well there isn't anything else new here in Nicoleland
*hopes something happens soon*
Blah
Nicole

I didn't make it
end of story

So Tuesday and wednesday were tryouts for the spring play
I thought that i didn't do very well
and so i was like yeah im not getting in this play
Then today, the call back list was posted
i was curious to see who made the call backs
then i was astonished, I saw my own name
I was pretty excited becuz i didn't expect it at all
then i was really disappointed, becuz a lot of very deserving people were not on the list
I felt really terrible cuz i was happy about something i didn't expect while there were so many people who were sad becuz they were expecting
So many people weren't on that list that really should have been
Then call back time came
My first group was Laurel Kaus and Fabro ( do i need to say his first name?)
I had like three lines
i think i did ok on them...
Then Mr N gave Laurel a new part with Alex and he told Fabs to go home (actually he said that he was done, but go home sounds harsher)
Then it was just me left
Mr pulled out a new script and picked a section and had me do just one really long line
When i thought i had it down, i went in
I did my thing, then he backed up to the end of the room, and made me talk louder
AHH im not so good at that
so idk what'll happen
If i get in GREAT, if not, oh well, i'll try again next year
So thats pretty much my day
*Hopeful*
Nicole

Everyone

This is to everyone:
I am sorry for everything
if i have hurt you and known it, or hurt you and not known it
I am sorry
I don't normally go around hurting people,
but sometimes it happens
i get in these streaks
and i start saying stupid stuff
then later, i feel really bad about it
i don't mean what i say when i say mean things
im really not a mean person
So to everyone that I may have hurt:
I'M SORRY

OMG SPEECH!

OMG SPEECH!!!
so speech was pretty much amazing
i loved it so much
it like totally rocked
and we had so many great time
like random people coming up and taking pictures with us
and telling samb that she has a pretty mouth
seeing jordan
and improv
and everyone did such an amzing job
WE MADE IT TO STATE
we totally rocked the sporks
we nailed it and no one messed up
the judge liked it and the audience laughed a lot
we had so much fun
and i can't wait til state
cuz we'll have even more fun
and hopefull we'll make it to all state
W00T!!!!!!!
*EXCITED*
the end
Nikki D

Speech!

Well we have been practicing for speech for like two ish weeks now
then two days in a row snow days
so we missed practice
but decided to practice anyway today
i think that we are pretty good, but sometimes we get kinda - off
i really hope that doesn't happen to us tomorrow
we have worked too hard for something stupid to happen
and it would pretty much piss me off
so yea
i am super excited for tomorrow
i can't wait to see what everyone else is doing
and i can't wait to see jordan!!
well Saturday for my family is really hectic and confusing and yea
My brother has this stupid percussion thing that mr hanson decided to do at the last minute
and they have been practicing it for like two weeks straight
at the gallagher bleudorn
thats like 8-10
our speech thing was supposed to be at 11:10, but becuz of the snow it got pushed up to 1:10
so now i need a ride too speech
and my brother's thing might take too long and my 'rents might not be able to come...
so it leaves me like alone all day except my peeps
then my dads office is having a post xmas party in des moines
which means they have to leave at like 2
so they have to leave early which means i also need a ride home\
grrr
then we find out that my dads great aunt died
guess when the funeral is....
you guessed it... Saturday
so he might not be able to come
i have worked to hard on this for my parents not even care
my brother has been in so many stupid percussion things they don't even faze me anymore
but of course they'd rather go to his thing
why don't my parents care
they either don't care at all or they care too much and don't let me do anything
i never know what is gonna happen
lifes a mystery
so my parents are coming to my thing so my bro needs a ride home for his thing
we take advantage of a lot of people
rawr... too many things happening at once
i really want to make it to all state, cuz that would just be amazing
i hope everyone does well

luvluv
Nikki D

I was bored so i found this dumb random survey


What is on your desktop wallpaper?
Snowflakes
What is your favorite zoo animal?
Giraffes
What was your favorite toy as a child?
Stuffed animals
What food do you eat too much of?
Cookies
What kind of hairstyle do you have?
Shoulder lengh - is that a style?
What was your favorite activity in gym class?
Prolly gymnastics of bowling
What is on the shirt you're wearing right now?
Wsr Volleyball
What is the picture nearest to you of?
A cabin
What kind of salad dressing do you like?
Ranch
Whats your least favorite food?
Chocolate
What do you do on a Sunday night?
Computer
If you could only use one condiment on your food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
I don't usually put condiments on my food, im boring
What color are your sheets?
Cream/whiteish
How big is your computer display?
idk what that means....
What pair of shoes do you wear most often?
Tennis shoes or rocket dogs
What is your favorite game?
Apples to Apples
What is your favorite Thanksgiving food?
Pumpkin pie
What is your favorite pizza topping?
Canadian bacon
What time do you plan on waking up tomorrow?
7:00
What is your favorite day of the year?
Christmas or my birthday

thats my life the end

wellll

Um i haven't really written on here for a long time and i kinda feel bad about it not really
anyway i went to National Treasure with Brianne last night and it was amazing
we had both already seen it so we decided to make it more interesting
we pretty much turned the whole moving into sex
it was amazing, you have no idea
You can't even understand why "its a little golden man" made us laugh histerically
we rock and you know it
but we had no school today so thats why i am writing this at 2:45
ooo and yesterday "working" on history day we jammed to this amazing Romanian song
it was like techno and dance mixed
it was super fun
we just jumped around in sams kitched listening to it over and over again
Im pretty darn excited becuz i pulled off an A in geometry
i had an A- for a while but i got a good grade on my test and it brought it up to an A i was pumped thats another 4.0 for me!!
then i found out that i am in drivers ed this semester, which is super exciting cuz then i have to whole summer to myself
so yeah im pretty excited
but now im over it and i am really bored
i should write something deep and meaningful, but nothing deep and meaninful has happened to me lately so yea
the end
you love me and you know it.
Nikki D

over it?

Well yesterday was the 10th
it wasn't that bad
i thought it would be worse
but of course the idiot didn't remember what the day was so that made it a little better
faithe is going to ask him if he likes me or not
im not sure i want to hear the answer
btw i didn't tell her to ask him she was she was going to
but idk
so today was really fun
we had periods 2 4 6 & 8
i had my health test which means my last day of health ever
i had my english vocab test which was realllyyyyy hard
we went out to eat at subway and then went to beth's and guitar heroed it out
we ROCKED
then i went to science and took that test which is hopefully the last time i have mr keith!
so that was my day today
it was interesting
and i can't wait until tonight when we are going to party like rockstars
and make another amazing run to fareway!!
yayness
*excited*
~Nikki D~

Today

Well today is the ninth
one day away from the 10th
i am pretty much freaking out
for what reason i don't know
well
i purdy much like him... again....
its like heroin that we learned about it health
you can try to get over it but its like you have an addiction forever
it keeps coming back
unfortunaly
i need help
i want him but i don't
anyone know what i mean?
i really need/want a date to winterfest
i don't want to be alone for another boring dance
*sigh*
i don't know what to do....
help ? anyone....

*confused*
~Lonely~

*sigh*

First i'd like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMB!!!!
second, i have been feeling really depressed lately because january 10th is coming up
for those of you who don't know, jan 10th was my anniversary with allan
i don't really know what i am feeling
but its not good whatever it is
its not happy or glad
its like depression
also today i found out that someone stole my instrument out of my band locker and threw it into the snow
the keys are bent and the pads will prolly need to be replaced. this come out to be a bill of over $100
great....
Mr. vowels reported it to mr winter, and he might report it to the police. its considered vandalisim
i don't think they will be able to catch the person who did it. so i will get stuck paying for it.
today has been just wonderful

Then i decided to tell yal about my fears in life

prolly my biggest fear is that you guys are going to ditch my like we ditched emily or aditi
idk what i would do without my friends, plz don't ditch me

another fear is that i will do my best grade wise and i will not make it into a college and i will have to work at mcdonalds or something

I don't want to be single forever

I will fail at life

Make a mistake so big, that someone will die

I fear being someone im not

I fear being morbidly obese

I fear fear it self

I don't want to fear

Fears are crazy, but they're real

You can't live with them, but you can't live without them

wow just like men

I don't know what to think anymore, i just feel like i fear everything and that nothing ever goes right for me anymore
i just want to be in elementary again where no one judged you on how well you did in school, or how good at sports you are, or what clothes you wore, i just wish that everyone learned that money isn't everything, and that the clothes you wear are not going to make you "cool" and the grades you get aren't going to make you "nerdy" and if you're good at sports you're not automatically a "jock" normal doesn't exist, the world needs to accept that everyone has different likes and dislikes, no one is the same and we need to realize that

love?
Nicole