What to say?

This goes to all people who i should say things to and haven't

We haven't hung out for so many years, we were such good friends in elementary, then you moved. Things changed a lot for us after that. I am not sure why i am writing to you in particular because i know that you will never read this. but lately i have been thinking about how much fun we used to have

It's so weird that we never talk anymore, we should change that, maybe over spring break or something we should all three get together. We need something like that. I can't even remember the last time were alone together

We used to be super good friends, then you got really annoying, and i told you so, and you were away for awhile, but then you came back, you have your mind so much in remembering the past that you can't concentrate on the present. You need to stop living in the past and live for today

We were good friends in fifth, then in sixth i got really fed up with you, but i didn't tell you, then seventh grade came and we were good friends again. then came along eighth grade and everything fell apart. the notes flew and the names were called, rumors spread and basketball got in the way of everything. one last note was written and everything ended for a long time. but then you came back even though we didn't' want you to. we still hang out, but you don't get it - we don't like you. you need to learn to take a hint

You are really weird, but you are perfect for her. you have so much in common, even though you never go out of your way for her. you should really acutally try if your gonna make this work, i know you can do anything if you put your mind to it

You had to be on her side, you couldn't be your own person. so you were "standing up for your friend" but then the funny thing is the next year you can finally see what we saw all along. we thought you were finally on our side, but no, the next week you are bestest friends again. im not quite sure i can trust you, but you are purdy fun to be around

You have taught me all about being in highschool. i glad i met you during those hot summer days in muni band. we have spent some amazing times in study hall and band camp, you are so much fun to be around. im so glad we met

You are pretty much an inspiration. you always know what to say. you can make me laugh so easily, its like second nature to you. i can be down a lot, but you can always cheer me up when i want to laugh, or you'll be there when i want to be deep and serious. i can always count on you to help me when i need it

You are a bad influence and you need to stop. your a fake and you don't hae any feelings, you use people and someday it's going to come back and bite you in the butt. you say you will change,...... no you won't

We have helped each other through quite. we haven't really been really good friends since this year and im really glad we've become better friends. i can trust you to help me make the right decision and i hope that i can help you even half as much as you help me

You are so alive all the time, it seems like you are ever down. we all know that you can't last even one period without laughing. you're so easy to love. your easy to be around cuz ur not offended easily and your fun to joke around with

You have changed a lot in the past few months and im not sure i like it. you used to be so innocent and sweet, now you do stuff that i never would have imagined you doing a few months ago. you can say that things change, but don't you think they should change for the better. High school changes everyone, but i think you have changed the most....

You always seem to think i am mad at you, but im not. sometimes it makes me mad that you think im mad and then i feel bad that im mad for a stupid reason and its kinda frustrating. idk. you can always make a joke out of everything, you are really creative and i wish that i could be creative like you. we've gotten pretty close the past two years and we have lots of inside jokes that we bring up all the time. You have also changed quite a bit this year. you have sorta chaged the clothes you wear and the people you hang out with, its not a bad thing at all. just different. i just don't want you to get hurt, but i know you are super strong and you won't let anything happen to you

I don't know you at all , but i do know that you have broken many hearts with your fakeness. sometimes you've broken the same heart multiple times. do you have any idea how much pain you have caused? i do cuz i can see it in her eyes. you need to get your priorities straight bud

You are probably the most confusing person i know. i like you, you like me, you do one to many stupid things, we're through. i still like you, but you like her, she likes you. she's a slut. you're over her and onto someone else just like that. you really like her. during this whole thing, i am still here, still waiting for you to come back to earth and stop trying to impress the preps, it will never work, sorry but you're gonna be harry potter forever. finally she dumps you... surprise surprise. then i see the hurt on your face, the emotion in your eyes. i think i feel sorry for you. you have done so much stuff and changed so much in the past six months that i don't know how i feel towards you. that look in your eyes told me that you have come back down to earth, but i'll never know because im pretty sure we will never work again

I love you cuz ur always there, but why do you have to be so over protective, what do you think i am going to do? if i were gonna do something stupid and something were to happen to me, it would be my own fault. how am i supposed to learn if i can't make mistakes. yeah grades are important, but an A- isn't bad. I will get free college anyway, so technically i can loosen up on my grades, but don't worry, i am proud of my grades

You'll never read this, but you are really annoying, but its fun to tell you about all the things that happen in my life because there isn't really anyone you can tell that will care what happens. Its fun to tell what things are going to happen to you in the future. its also entertaing to hear about stories in your school because most of those things happened when i was there too.



These things are truthful, i don't mean to offend or hurt anyone with these. some of them are quite harsh and i feel sorta bad about writing them, but i needed so write them down for personal reasons. I will not tell you which one you are. even if you guess, i will prolly not tell you
all of you i wrote about are amazing people. and i love all of you, but i don't want to hurt anyone, so just take it to heart and understand where i am coming from.

i love you,
Nicole