What to say?

This goes to all people who i should say things to and haven't

We haven't hung out for so many years, we were such good friends in elementary, then you moved. Things changed a lot for us after that. I am not sure why i am writing to you in particular because i know that you will never read this. but lately i have been thinking about how much fun we used to have

It's so weird that we never talk anymore, we should change that, maybe over spring break or something we should all three get together. We need something like that. I can't even remember the last time were alone together

We used to be super good friends, then you got really annoying, and i told you so, and you were away for awhile, but then you came back, you have your mind so much in remembering the past that you can't concentrate on the present. You need to stop living in the past and live for today

We were good friends in fifth, then in sixth i got really fed up with you, but i didn't tell you, then seventh grade came and we were good friends again. then came along eighth grade and everything fell apart. the notes flew and the names were called, rumors spread and basketball got in the way of everything. one last note was written and everything ended for a long time. but then you came back even though we didn't' want you to. we still hang out, but you don't get it - we don't like you. you need to learn to take a hint

You are really weird, but you are perfect for her. you have so much in common, even though you never go out of your way for her. you should really acutally try if your gonna make this work, i know you can do anything if you put your mind to it

You had to be on her side, you couldn't be your own person. so you were "standing up for your friend" but then the funny thing is the next year you can finally see what we saw all along. we thought you were finally on our side, but no, the next week you are bestest friends again. im not quite sure i can trust you, but you are purdy fun to be around

You have taught me all about being in highschool. i glad i met you during those hot summer days in muni band. we have spent some amazing times in study hall and band camp, you are so much fun to be around. im so glad we met

You are pretty much an inspiration. you always know what to say. you can make me laugh so easily, its like second nature to you. i can be down a lot, but you can always cheer me up when i want to laugh, or you'll be there when i want to be deep and serious. i can always count on you to help me when i need it

You are a bad influence and you need to stop. your a fake and you don't hae any feelings, you use people and someday it's going to come back and bite you in the butt. you say you will change,...... no you won't

We have helped each other through quite. we haven't really been really good friends since this year and im really glad we've become better friends. i can trust you to help me make the right decision and i hope that i can help you even half as much as you help me

You are so alive all the time, it seems like you are ever down. we all know that you can't last even one period without laughing. you're so easy to love. your easy to be around cuz ur not offended easily and your fun to joke around with

You have changed a lot in the past few months and im not sure i like it. you used to be so innocent and sweet, now you do stuff that i never would have imagined you doing a few months ago. you can say that things change, but don't you think they should change for the better. High school changes everyone, but i think you have changed the most....

You always seem to think i am mad at you, but im not. sometimes it makes me mad that you think im mad and then i feel bad that im mad for a stupid reason and its kinda frustrating. idk. you can always make a joke out of everything, you are really creative and i wish that i could be creative like you. we've gotten pretty close the past two years and we have lots of inside jokes that we bring up all the time. You have also changed quite a bit this year. you have sorta chaged the clothes you wear and the people you hang out with, its not a bad thing at all. just different. i just don't want you to get hurt, but i know you are super strong and you won't let anything happen to you

I don't know you at all , but i do know that you have broken many hearts with your fakeness. sometimes you've broken the same heart multiple times. do you have any idea how much pain you have caused? i do cuz i can see it in her eyes. you need to get your priorities straight bud

You are probably the most confusing person i know. i like you, you like me, you do one to many stupid things, we're through. i still like you, but you like her, she likes you. she's a slut. you're over her and onto someone else just like that. you really like her. during this whole thing, i am still here, still waiting for you to come back to earth and stop trying to impress the preps, it will never work, sorry but you're gonna be harry potter forever. finally she dumps you... surprise surprise. then i see the hurt on your face, the emotion in your eyes. i think i feel sorry for you. you have done so much stuff and changed so much in the past six months that i don't know how i feel towards you. that look in your eyes told me that you have come back down to earth, but i'll never know because im pretty sure we will never work again

I love you cuz ur always there, but why do you have to be so over protective, what do you think i am going to do? if i were gonna do something stupid and something were to happen to me, it would be my own fault. how am i supposed to learn if i can't make mistakes. yeah grades are important, but an A- isn't bad. I will get free college anyway, so technically i can loosen up on my grades, but don't worry, i am proud of my grades

You'll never read this, but you are really annoying, but its fun to tell you about all the things that happen in my life because there isn't really anyone you can tell that will care what happens. Its fun to tell what things are going to happen to you in the future. its also entertaing to hear about stories in your school because most of those things happened when i was there too.



These things are truthful, i don't mean to offend or hurt anyone with these. some of them are quite harsh and i feel sorta bad about writing them, but i needed so write them down for personal reasons. I will not tell you which one you are. even if you guess, i will prolly not tell you
all of you i wrote about are amazing people. and i love all of you, but i don't want to hurt anyone, so just take it to heart and understand where i am coming from.

i love you,
Nicole

Faithe

I told faithe that i would make a whole section on her... so here it goes
Faithe
she is a sophomore
she is amazing
and we hang out at school all the time
we are nerds who are nerdy
we are amazing band geeks
we rock
great times bowling
fun playing disney songs during study hall
beauty and the beast=suhweet
and mucho more
luvluv
~Nikki D~

New Years

So normally I don't make New Years Resolutions because I will forget what they are
and usually they are dumb anyway
like be nice to brother
or help mom more often
or don't die
or something stupid like that
so this year, i decided to make a new years resolutioin
It is going to be to have some time for myself
I don't need to have everything planned out all the time
i need to have a time to do nothing
or something whenever i want
and not have to worry about having to have it done by a certain time
It's prolly crazy
and it prolly won't work
but hey, i'll give it a try

mine isn't quite as deep as other people's are
because its not possible, but ya know what? DEAL WITH IT

yea

So I just got done reading Jordans amazing post about the past year
it makes me sad that its done
so much happened last year that i can't even put it into words
I just hope next year can be as good if not so much better
In a few hours, it will be 2008
in a few hours, i hope i can forget the bad things that happened this year
and hope for an amazing new year
In the next year:
I hope to be a part in the spring play
I hope to do well on my solo
another school year will end
a summer full of fun will go by
and an another school year will start
i will no longer be a frosh
i will be a sophomore
i will turn 16
i will be able to drive
hopefully i will finally get a cellular device
and i will be more socially fit
i shall be more involved in activiies
listen to more music
and become more diverse in everything that i do
I hope that 2008 can bring me as much joy and happiness as the past year did

Happy New Year to all
~Nikki D~

Things

I got this from the amazing jordan who is very deep
so i thought i would try and be deep,

Ten things you wish you could say to ten different people.
1) I miss you so much, we need to get together again
2) I love you so much, you have no idea how much you help me through life
3) We had so many good times, what happened?
4) I liked you better before you got a boyfriend
5) You are too easily offended
6) Did you have to crush me so hard? What did I do to you?
7) You really confuse me
8) Do you understand the word hint?
9) At one point you were there for me, now, it will never be the same
10) Forgive me?
Nine things about yourself.
1) i get nervous really easily.
2) when i get nervous, (which happens easily), i shake really bad
3) I feel that my grades are too important to me
4) I play the flute well, but I wish i was sooo much better
5) I wanna be able to love someone so much it hurts
6) I want someone to love me back for once
7) I want to be romantic, but I'm not sure how
8) I think to much about my self, and how others see me
9) I make unreachable goals, and I think too much about what I should have done
Eight ways to win your heart.
1) Have a sense of humor
2) Be exciting and adventorous, but not too much!
3) Suprise me!
4) Know what I want
5) Help me
6) Make decisions
7) hug me all the time.
8) love me.
Seven things that cross your mind a lot
1) My besties
2) fMy fam
3) Boys in general
4) Musique
5) Just life
6) The future
7) The past
Six things you wish you never did
1) Dated a good friend
2) Said certain things
3) Made a big deal of nothing
4) Complain so much
5) Be ungrateful
6) Done too little
Five turn offs
1) Rude
2) Forgetful/ignoring
3) Oh the lies
4) too competitive
5) clingy
Four turn ons
1) humorous
2) intelligent
3) attractive
4) kind/sweet
Three smileys that describe your life
1) ;-)
2) ...
3) =)
Two things you want to do before you die
1) Travel the world
2) Be very good at something

omg i haven't written for a really long time

so i haven't written for a really long time
and all yal seem to have deep blogs
im not a deep person therefore
no deep blog
the end
well the last two days i have spent with samn and jt
HISTORY DAY
thats it
we went to the library and had some pretty amazing times
like eating pringles
and jordans head rolling around in the back
and pwning sams cellular device game
sitting on a bench at the grout museum
and many many more
just in two days
long rides to des moines really bring out the craziness in us
bummer for sam's 'rents
oh well
they love us anyway
thats as deep as it gets with me
the end
luvluv
Nikki D

Friday

DANCE TONIGHT W00T!!!!!!

Hopefully it will be really fun
i don't have a date, but oh well
so i figured out that blogspot is just like livejournal
i really need a facebook
grrr
um yeah
school is boring as usual
It has snowed a lot here lately
so we haven't really been having that much school
im not complaining
*sigh*

Nicole